Monday, January 24, 2011

WHAT A DAY!

For the past week, I have been on a cleanse with Get Fit Gym, Ladys Island SC. Yes! I just gave them a plug. It is the best gym for me and I will tell you why....I got up early this morning and did my workout classes.  I steped on the scale and there it was in one week with the cleanse and workout. I lost 12 pounds. 

Oh! and I have been dancing as well.  I am feeling so lovely right now.  Speaking of dancing, it is my life.  This is what I told a lady at Burton Wells Recreation Center, Beaufort SC (where I teach Dance).  Yes! another plug. Interesting in taking a dance class, I teach 3-UP ages just call 843 255 6600 http://www.mufukaworksdance.com/. I told her dance is my life and she kept saying what do you do.  I kept telling her dance is my life. 

I have worked so hard for it and it has consumed my entire life. Some people may not understand why I give so much for dance.  If they took a walk in my life,  they will completely understand.

For I was born for something bigger than myself, I know this because God really prepared me for moments like....

Seeing my dance students grow, the look that they have of self confidence.  It is so fulfilling every single time.  I ended my night with that look of self confidence from my dance students.  In fact a look of many things but all in all. Their look of hope. 

What a day! I also finished some of my grad school work.  If you are to go to grad school go for someting you really enjoy because you have your work cut out for you.  Between running my company and grad school, I am a 24/7 woman.  So when it is time to do homework for grad school, I am so happy that I am interested in the work.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Dear Readers: Today’s Church Sermon spoke to me: The Backslidden Believer

I remember when Christ came into my life.  I so wanted to learn more about him.  I wanted to know Christ not just of him.  You know, like, we know of our President but we don’t know him.  Like we don’t know what brand of socks he likes.  I want to know what brand of socks Jesus will wear because I will want to wear them so I can walk like him. 

I would not be so uncertain about a lot of things because I was walking like him.  I wouldn’t be falling into depression so often.  I would be at peace because the Holy Spirit will be counseling me.  Life will be bring me challenges but I will be giving every challenge to the Lord.  Then it will not be heavy on me.

Today’s sermon opened my eyes wide and it acknowledged me as being a backslidden believer.  Something of course that I did not want to admit.  I got caught up in the blessings and I was praying lesser.   I feel less into the want of wearing his socks even if I knew that I already had the socks. When things were really bad I was dropped to my knees everyday.  Now I am not even fitting my daily the prayer as I once did before. 

A few situations have come up and the realization had come up.  I can’t do this on my own.  How could I forget where God brought me out of?  If it was not for him, I will not even be standing by now.  So the excitement needs to come back, first I repent for the sins that I have done while saved.  I praise you Lord.  My needs Lord…I need help in Grad School.  It is a difficult path especially these papers and time gets away from me because of the dance company I run.  Both are good but I don’t want one to give into another.  Help me see clearly how you want me to manger both. 

Based on Genesis 35:1-15, The sermon today was split into the believer’s invitation (thank you for inviting me to you), preparation (repent to clean the heart), cleansification (the cleansing process begins) Than the 3 applications:
1)       Do you LOVE Jesus Christ?  Yes and not just what he does for me but him.
2)      If you don’t LOVE Christ as ONCE before, How do you fix it? 
Revelations 2:3
3)       Have Jesus ever been your 1st LOVE?
Yes when I put him before my first 1st love here on earth. I knew then.

NEWS FLASH Dance Update: Saturdays Performance at Birthday Bash Celebration went well at New Covenant Fellowship Ministries of Beaufort.

Kuronga Ronga SOLUTIONS
Recite

Revelation 2:3-5 
And you have perseverance and have endured for My name’s sake, and have not grown weary.  But I have this against you, that you have left your first love.  Therefore remember from where you have fallen, and repent and do the deeds you did at first; or else I am coming to you and will remove your lamp stand out of its place-unless you repent.

Remember
In Christian Life, you either go forward or backwards. GO BACK TO YOUR BETHAL WHEN YOUR HEART GOES COLD.   Where you first fell to your knees to Christ, mine was at my church in Beaufort.   and yes! i know that Jesus will not be having socks on his time on Earth but you must admit that it was a GREAT symbolization.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

i slept in today

i slept in today


i can't remember the last that i slept and woke up not being tried. i can't remember  the last time that i woke up and had to go somewhere. i can't remember the last time that i woke up not crying. i can't remember the last time that i woke up not thinking ohhhhhh another day. i can't remember the last time i woke up not thinking of him. i can't remember the last time that i woke up not feeling pressure from myself.


i slept in today


i felt rested.i felt hopeful. i felt loved. i felt hungry for more. i felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. i felt life.


i slept in today


i picked up the bible and read it. 




i slept in today thinking ohhhhhhhhhhhhh so happy another day. today i perform at new covenant fellowship ministries of Beaufort at 6pm. i will feel closer to God today when i dance. I feel closer to him every time i dance. 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

You will think that I will be exhausted

This week I did a full workout every morning and did some walking on the treadmill for an hour.  In addition to teaching all my dance classes and I am on my cleanse of shakes and salads.


You will think that I will be exhausted but I am not. All of these things are done because of dancing.  When I get tried something always reminds me why I do what I do.


You will think that I will be exhausted.


Coming from a town about 1 hour and 15 minutes away from my home, I had the energy to drive back from home from my students.  One of my students gave me a big hug and it made everything ok. 


She did not know that I have a long week.  She did not know of my thoughts of just going away for a while.  Just a while to change the scenery for maybe a week.  She did not know that everything i do.  I am still not catching up with my work.


She gave me  a hug and some of my students had recognized me as well.  They told me how great I am.  It made me feel like driving back home and continue working on me by getting closer to my Lord. SO i can teach to the best.


You will think that I will be exhausted. I am but I cant let that stop me

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I HAD A BAD DAY TODAY UNTIL I KNEW PURPOSE.

 

I heard from an ex-friend today and it really threw me off.  My ex-friend and I just ended and I had not heard from him in eleven months.  Yes! It almost was a year.

Of course for those eleven months, I wondered if I ever saw him again, what I will say to him.  Well...I didn't say anything that I was planning on saying.  I just wanted to know how he was doing.

Can you tell that I was hurt by him?

He was doing just fine and his few words to me actually put a realization up float.

Of course the realization only came toward the end of the day.

It was in the elementary school teaching dance.

I was teaching about forty students.  They were all attentive and they were dancing very well.  One of my students finally jumped about three feet off the ground (you should have seen his face, he now believes of doing anything) they all recited the meaning of a dance movement called releve.  The meaning is "to rise."  They all recited my quote, "Anything worth anything is HARD work."  Our dance class theme today was "determined."  I asked the class, what does determined mean?  A student raised his hand and said: "it means DON’T GIVE UP."

BY THE WAY, THE PEOPLE INVOLVED WITH TRYING TO CUT FUNDS FOR THE ARTS. STEP INTO MY DANCE CLASS AND TELL ME THAT THE ARTS ARE NOT CHANGING THE WORLD. THE WORLD DOES CHANGE WITH CHILDREN. INSTILL THE ARTS IN A CHILD. INSTILL HOPE. WITH HOPE, THEY COULD DO ANYTHING BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES.

My ex-friends few words popped into my mind.  He said don’t' every change. You showed me what happiness is in life so don't ever change.  Little did he know, I have not been exactly happy for awhile.

You know there are some people in this world that you just connect with.  He is that to me.  He knows me better than anyone.  But some people are just not supposed to be together or maybe we just choose not to be. Who knows?  My ex-friend and I will always connect and it ends there.  Just a connection!  That connection came back today in the right moment.  It reminded me into who I am.

Yea! You will think after all my growth that I did not need to be reminded. But I did.

I was full of tears and teaching dance at the elementary school.  Those children uplifted me today and I took a DEEP breath.  IN that moment, I knew of my purpose.  This is my purpose.  I am a dancer but most importantly a teacher. 

After teaching at the elementary school, I continued teaching on to my performance company and choreographed a beautiful dance work to "Jars of Heart."

Just because life happens, I may not hear from my ex-friend again but he helped for today.

I had a bad day today until I knew purpose.

My purpose. My happiness.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

when teaching, be clear on the WHY because one day someONE else will want to know: what is the point?

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

BLISS

Being back home, it is bliss. Coming straight from Charlotte, NC to Beaufort.  I went straight into teaching DANCE.  Everyday I am growing and my students do not have any idea....How they teach me?  Today my little student taught me how it is to walk even more confident. 

She is an eight year old but small for her age.  I really watched her today and I saw her.  She walked so straight up to make herself appear taller.  It worked for her and she looked so much more confident. 

She was just absolutely stunning.  Today was bliss....not to mention that I ended my day with watching "The Game."  on BET.

It had me thinking:  Do people really do things for the goodness of telling the truth or do they use telling the truth for their own convenience. 

Monday, January 10, 2011

SNOW DAY!








I woke up this morning.  I was rested and I was ready to go back to my hometown.  Due to my duties for Grad School, I have been in Charlotte, NC about 3 hours away from my hometown.  I had been enlighten by the whole weekend and learned so much.  I was ready to come back to my hometown.  


But my plans were slowed down by SNOW DAY! and I had to stay in Charlotte for another day.


Yes! the grounds were covered in Snow and it was just absolutely beautiful.  As I had took my pictures in the snow, I realized that the world has beautiful moments.  This was a beautiful moment.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

COFFEE OR TEA JAN 5

SOMETIMES I JUST NEED REST....

Sometimes I just need rest...

I am up and running kind of woman.  I have a lot on my plate.  Weekly, I go to three different cities from teaching dance classes, choreographying, and grad schools.  Right now I am in Charolette, NC (about three hours from my home town).  I was planning to go out some poetry night here but

Sometimes I just need rest....

I did not get up until 1pm today.  I am a early riser and I slept in. I dont particular like sleeping in especially on the Lord's day at least I was planning on church today. I cant even remember the last day that I missed church.

Sometimes I just need rest...

Today I read my the scriputure 4 in Ephesians.  I will take my rest and just give myself time to figure out what do I really want in life.  I am so busy but not taking time to figure out my desires in life.  If I dont take this rest, I will be working toward sometime to nothing.

Friday, January 7, 2011

MY READER INSPIRED ME-A LETTER FROM MY READER

Dear Elsie

our paths crossed very briefly a million years ago at Hatfied Primary School and you were just visiting our school while you were on holiday at your grandparents (i think) .Anyway this is kinda strange i know because we were so young and you definately would not remember me because while we only had to learn one name you had to learn a lot of names.

Anyway the point of me writing is just to say I came across your blog and it gave me courage to face the future which i was scared off really because of a lack of belief in myself and everyone i lean on (my family and my fiance) would be far away but most importantly it was after reading your blog that i decided to re-dedicate my life to Christ.....so THANK YOU for not being afraid to let your light shine bright enough for me to have seen it and GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS

P.S if this is the wrong Elsie and not the one that used to come to Hatfield Primary School..sorry and i still love the blog

Saturday, January 1, 2011

I WOKE UP

I woke up with a weight lifted off my shoulders....

Weight.Weight.Weight.

What weight everything but most of all the weight of holding it on myself?

My mentor says that I am too hard on myself. She is right. If I focus too much on my past mistakes, I wont even be able to live the right now.  Sounds so simple but I don't even know where to start until today.  I needed just a feeling of starting over.  This is the day, January 1, 2011.

2011 something different....MORE FAITH.