ONLY GOES UP FROM HERE

Dear readers,

I work over night.  When the morning comes, I get so sleepy but on Sundays I must go to church.  Some Sundays are harder to go to church after I worked all night, I do anyways because my God.  I have to hear the word. If I did not hear the word, I will be holding back from learning. 

This year has been a learning lesson for me.  I am really learning to let God be my core.  In this life of mine, things are going up.  My biggest dream is to be an arts administrator and run my dance company.  I am getting there. Recently, the world is just lining up for me.  I only can go up from here. 

It took a long while to really let it go to God.  When I did, WOW!  I know what you’re thinking. I thought the same thoughts about people putting their trust in God.  Everything was going so bad for me, I was wondering: Where is this God that people talk about?  Well, when nothing was going right for me, I searched for the Lord.  I accepted him as my Lord and savior. I learned about him in church and my own reading.  I am still growing in the word. 

As I grow, my life is getting a lined.  It only goes up from here.

To meet the love of your life....

It will be a sad thing to meet the love of your life and never be with him.  Ladies and gentlemen, I have meant the love of my life and due to  circumstances people say don't be with him.  Now, these people are just not people.  They are my family and everything they say its true.  They are right about everything about the man I love.  He may never change. 

So, I had to ask myself: am I willing to take on everything beyond the love?  Beyond the love, we have fiances, direction of some kind of career, life, family issues he never got over not having a mother, a son, no credit, record, and many more. That's! his resume that I knew from the beginning.  Every reason, my family can't accept him. I completely see why too don't you?

But, I had the opportunity to meet the love my life.  I laughed more than ever and found someone deeply to understand the core of me. He supports me in all I do.  His a great father.  He has dreams bigger than himself.  He holds me so tight that I just know this world is not that brutal after all.  However, his not here and I wish everyone will stop reminding me to let him go.  Let me make that decision because all I can think of: "To meet the love of your life and you can not be with him.  That's the saddest love story."

Love stories are suppose to be fairytales and whose to say mine won't be.  Are fairytales only in the storybooks for kids?