TRUSTING PEOPLE

The love of my life said the other day "my baby is so nice that it may be confused that she is naive but she is not at all."  That is right. I do stand on my own two feet and see all these things happen before it happens.  However, it is inside of me to trust people first before they break my trust.  I live by this and it has not serve me well at all.


I DO GET UPSET WHEN MY TRUST IS BROKING


Today my trust was broking and to someone that I never expected.  I trusted them my whole life.


I LEARNED SOMETHING TODAY


I learned that people are human.  My philosophy is not bad at all even if it has not brought me good results at times. My philosophy is to trust people first but like my father always says "trust but verify." 


I have seen alot of things lately. People surprise me daily good and bad. I am still trusting and it has brought me wonderful things in life as well.


ON TRUSTING PEOPLE


People are still human so that means their sinners.  I trust and verify now. I trust with my whole heart and pray for the best. I do not want to hold grudges because someone broke my trust. I want to live on and keep it moving.


Lord knows my mistakes and I had lots of second chances. So yes! my trust has been broken with many people but I decide to keep it moving and bring forgiveness in my heart. 


QUESTION: HAS YOUR TRUST BEEN BROKING AND HAVE YOU HELD ON TO THAT PAIN TOO LONG?  

Anxiety and Faith

Yesterday, it was a bad day but today even worse. I was driving to the career center so I could start getting a job related to my career goals. It surprises me that I never had assistance before.  The world has really put my age group (21-25 years) out in the cold air expecting us to pay all these loans, bills, and more. 


IT SUCKS


However, my faith is stronger. Instead of sitting around crying about it, I decided to say "no" and see what I am satisfied about. I am not happy with the position I am in life. I have two Bachelor of Arts Degrees and I am working on my Masters.  I am at a job and I do love my job but I know there is something more for me. I will like to utilize my education and skills more. That's all whether it is at my current job or somewhere else and it pays properly for the work that I do. 


I WAS IN HIGHER ED SCHOOL FOR FOUR YEARS


They say that undergraduate is like getting a high school diploma now.  Well I got the two undergraduate degrees and it has served me well. It got me a job in South Africa but I missed home so much in the states and I came back home.  It has been harder for me here to go for the American dream.  I am hopefully now working on my graduate degree and the job that I am in now is customer service. The people that I come across daily at work has really kept me hopefully for something more.  


THESE POSITIVE THOUGHTS HAS KEPT ME FAITHFUL DURING MY ANXIETY ATTACK.


Today I was driving and it hit me. All my emotions.  I just got overwhelmed. I was just tried. I have been working hard. living honestly. and just busting my self to death trying to get to a better life. My heart was in my throat at this point when all these thoughts were running pass my head and I just busted out crying. I really could not go through my day.


BUT I DID


I sat in my car and I prayed. I told the Lord to remind me of my current blessings.  Slowly I stopped crying and began to focus on my present.  The reason why I was in my car because I was driving to my new apartment to sign a lease.  This is one of my blessings. If I could afford a new apartment, I am not bad off.  I started to see that I know love and get love in return from my family, boyfriend, and strangers. That is a blessing.


THROUGH FAITH, I OVER CAME MY ANXIETY AND LIFE KEEPS ON MOVING ON FOR ME.


QUESTION: WHAT ARE YOUR BLESSINGS IN LIFE?

Dear readers,

I am in a transition in my life. Ok! I know that I am always in a transition but this time is different.  I had left my hometown searching for something more and really be an example to my peers and the youth. The way that I did this. I moved to an unfamiliar place.

The move has been a wonderful journey. I am in graduate school. I have a job. I am a freelance dancer that already has performed in Blumenthal's Spirit Square Theatre.   I just recently got a new apartment that fits me better. I move this week. 

THINGS ARE HAPPEN...

Honestly, I want more.  Before I left my hometown, I fell in love with this wonderful guy.  I miss daily. Ok! I miss him every second of my existence.  Honestly, I had some good relationships but this one relationship has really tested me to open my heart.  Open my heart WIDE open.

QUESTIONS HAVE SURFACED

My question to myself. Am I really happy at the point that I am in life? My answer is that I am satisfied. But I want more.  I want to have a better relationship with the lord. I want to dance more. I want my company to have a building that we could call home. I want to spend more time with the love of my life. I want to see my family more. I want to read more about everything in the world. I want to be able to go to more outings. I want to love harder.

I WANT. I WANT. I WANT.

My love will say than get busy. I can have all of these things right now.  So what is blocking me to having things to a better life.  I am blocking me. Oh! yes we are still at this point readers but I am acknowledging it. I am taking one step at a time. I am still growing. Will you grow with me.

QUESTION TO READERS
What is stopping you from your deepest desires?

MY NEXT DANCE SHOW

http://www.blumenthalarts.org/default.asp?blumenthal=59&objId=2610

TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY LIFE.

Yesterday, I could not sleep because I was so anxious of my meeting today.  Today, I started counseling and its just an effort of acknowledging that I needed some help cooping with some issues in my past.  So I did not sleep and I went to the meeting all late.  I apologized and gave no excuse. I just told the truth.


The truth: I was so nervous about this meeting to the point that I was not going to come. I did come to meeting so lets talk.


WHERE DO I BEGIN?


I started by telling her. Why I decided to take counseling sessions. I started from there and the session went on. It went well.


SO WHY DID I START?


I started because I realized that my past was affecting my future. I was not fully healed from some of the past events in life and I carried it on into the way of making decisions in my future. 


TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY LIFE.


In this new step in my life. I am making better choices by putting God first and the rest is flowing. I am intentionally seeing the people in my life and seeing if they have positive energy.  I listen more. I stop complaining of my situations that I am not happy with but understand each thing in my life has a blessing resting within it.


I AM TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY LIFE AND I AM HEALING.

BIBLE READING

Reading the Bible..

2 CHRON 25-26
THE PRIESTS DID NOT ALLOW UZZIAH TO BURN INCENSE AND INCENSE AND HE WAS ANGRY. WHAT TO HIM AND WHY?

this question was brought to me

MY RESPONSE

The fathers shall not be put to death for their children, nor shall the children be put to death for their fathers, but a person shall die for his own sin.-2 Chron 25 part of verse 4. This is a perfect example of like father;like son but each paid for their own sin.


UZZIAH WAS THE SON OF Amaziah and both died for his own sin.
As for Uzziah sin, it is not for you Uzziah, to burn incense to the Lord, but for the priest's, the sons of Aaron, who are consecrated to burn incense get out sanctuary, for you have trespassed! You shall have no humor from the Lord God." Then Uzziah became furious; and he had a censor in his hand to burn intense.


And while he was angry with the priests, leprosy broke out on his forehead, before the priest all the priests looked at him and there, on his forehead, before the priests in the house of the Lord, beside the incense altar.  and Azariah the chief priest and all the priests looked at him and there, on his foreword, he was leprous, so they thrust him out of that place. Indeed he also hurried to get out, because the Lord had struck him.


King Uzzziah was a leper until the day of his death. He dwelt in an isolated house, because he was a leper; for he was cut off from the house of the lord than Jotham his son was over the kings house, judging the people of the land. 2 Chron 26:18-21


So Uzziah rested with his fathers, and they buried him with his fathers in the field of burial which belonged to the kings, for they said, "He is a leper." then Jotham his son reigned in his place. -2 Chron 26:23

this is my hair

I have been natural for a consist one year now. I have always been a person that could never do my own hair. Being natural now, I could now do my hair. Here are some pictures:

a day of reflection

Today I reflect and remember.  Today marks the 10th anniversary of 9/11, 10 years past already.  I remember where I was during 9/11. I was in my high school's history class listening to the radio and barely able to comprehend that this was happening to my country.  I remember thinking of the families left behind and the country becoming united to support them. 

It has been 10 years now. This brings me to reflect on myself and ask do I play a part of the unity in my country now.  At this point, I do find a sense of peace in my life and I use that peace to give out positive energy to others. 

This weekend was my graduate school weekend. It asked me four questions: what is my heart;what do I bring to the table;what is my gift;and what do I expect from graduate school.  My answers were God and Family;Dance;bring positive energy;a sense of confidence in my field.

I was comuting four hours to school but I moved closer to my graduate school this year. I have a job to barely pay my bills and I am adjusting being young in a bigger city.   It took some planing but I am here.

I have a great person in my life who challenges me to be my better self. I do have some issues but all in all life is good.

what makes you at peace?

the next step

After the farewell dance performance, I was on a high.  I felt the energy of the room when my dance company, MufukaWorks performed. We did it. It was the best night ever. We cried and all. By far, the best that I ever performed but most of all I saw the growth of my dancers.  They were professionals. They were stars. It was their moment. It was by far way more than my expectations. It was God. 


Here is some video footage: 
http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=1930941548630&oid=266236560054841&comments
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1929705117720#!/video/video.php?v=1929609115320
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1929705117720#!/video/video.php?v=1929705117720

It was the farewell dance performance.  It was a farewell to one chapter and a opening to a new chapter. For MufukaWorks Dance Company director Elsie Mufuka (me) was moving from the hometown Beaufort, SC (MufukaWorks home base) to Charlotte, NC. The distance was 4 hours away. The same distance that I traveled for a year for graduate school.  I simply had to be honest to myself and realize that I could not do the commute anymore. It is my last year of graduate school and I am working on my thesis.  The pressure of travel, work, company, and school. Something was going to give.


My students are my teachers and I am a example to them. I teach them the importance of education and they taught me a true reflection of myself. So I made a hard decision and I made a farewell to Beaufort, SC to continue to finish my schooling.  All in all, my decision made after lots of prayer.  It was the best decision. 


MufukaWorks dancers will always be MufukaWorks


1) Three of the dancers went to college and the knowing that they could do anything. Anyone who knows MufukaWorks knows once you enter MufukaWorks only the strongest survive.  With that said, they could handle anything now in life.  (Who says Art does not develop the mind?).


2) Through all the MufukaWorks dance workshops with the at risk youth,  one dancer decided to continue to do child development classes so she could become a teacher, own her day care, and become one the examples to the youth of today.


3) One is continuing dance education at the hottest dance technical school in the area


4) The one dancer whom was fighting all year to earn her spot into the professional dance world, did it full out. Now on board with Charleston, SC Ms. Queen.  She will be flying all over the place doing what she does, Dance.


I started this company one year ago and the growth is just amazing.  When I look back on this year, I say thank you God.  Thank you for making my dream come true.  Everyone is asking what is next for MufukaWorks Dance Company.  My answer: lets wait on the Lord because my goodness if he did all of this in one year. Can you imagine what he has in store for MufukaWorks Dance Company next?


Always MufukaWorks

I forgot to tell you readers. I will be moving away from my hometown. Farewell dance perfomrance August 12 at 8pm. Artworks, Beaufort SC. http://mufukaworksfarewell2011.eventbrite.com

woke up bible reading

Every morning, my co-pastor sends me bible reading passages in a text message. Some mornings, I do consistently answer and some mornings I don't. I know:I need to stop trying and just do. I am growing people, making God the first priority. 

SO TODAY'S BIBLE READING 1 KINGS 11-12

QUESTION AND ANSWER: WHAT DID SOLOMON DO AGAINST GOD THAT GOD TOOK THE KINGDOM FROM SOLOMON'S SON? and had commanded him concerning this thing, that he should not go after other gods; but he did not keep what the Lord had commanded.  Therefore the Lord said to Solomon, because you have done this, and have not kept my covenant and my statues, which I have command you, I will surely tear the kingdom away from you and give it to your servant.  Nevertheless I will not do it in your days, for the sake of your father David; I will tear it out of the hand of your son.  1 KINGS 11:10-12

WHEN I READ THE CHAPTERS AND FOUND THIS ANSWER, I JUST SHOUTED OUT UMMMM EVEN WORSE. YOUR CHILD GETS THE BURDEN OF YOUR SIN.  I don't have children but I will.  I do have people that I care about in my life.  I also have children that are my students.  I care about my people deeply and I realize to scan my life for sin because my actions could affect the people that I just adore.  So I did. What did I learn?

I learned that not to engage into something that totally contradicts your said beliefs.  The question will arise do you really believe what you say you believe.  My past actions have been in the same light as Solomon.  what i learned was that my temptation was turning my relationships into projects.  Really believing that I can change the heart of someone, it was because every relationship that I have been in always been that way.  For I was wrong, I could only plant a seed.  For just like Jesus change me, he will work on these hearts.  They will have to just accept him into their life.  With me doing this instead of me changing hearts, I was changed.  I recognized it a little late but I publicized it. REPENTED. PRAYED AND NOW I am beginning my healing process.  Ready for any consequences that may arise from my actions.  For I loved him but I love God more. 

evaluating myself

Recently, I got myself in a situation that I knew from the very beginning. It will end badly but I stayed in it. So I sat back and I scan my life for sin. This situation was the cause of my scattered self lately.  I allowed my situation to draw me away from God and slowly I just stopped talking to my Lord. 

"You don't have to change who you are but you have to change some of the things you do."

I recognize that my situation was drawing me away. I learned from it and now I repented and getting my relationship with the Lord.  I told my mentors (my mom and pastor)  in my life of my situation that I actually was ashamed of and I felt a weight lifted off my shoulder.

And now, I began to heal and evaluating myself. What makes me make mindless decisions?

I start fasting tomorrow.

NOT AFRAID OF GROWTH

Alot has been going on lately, it has left me lost in translation.  With that being, I took a break today so I could breath and live my life.  It has been a while since I sat down and rested.  Today is my day to sit and rest.  I have reflected alot on my needs and wants.  What are my needs and wants? well it is just like everyone else, my needs and wants sum up to: I just want PEACE.

My peace lies in my dancing,choreography, school, and all in all supporting myself.

I am not afraid of growth anymore. I am willing to go full out and if I fall. I fall but guess what I will get right back up.  This week, I perform on Wednesday Jully 20, 2011 at 7pm.

Elsie Mufuka-its me again

letting go everything holding me back

and just like that I begin to let go everything that was holding me back...

You know life is hard but not as complicated as portrayed by me. I have not written in awhile and every time that I begin to write. It was hard to start so I start writing again today. It will not be great but it is a start.

Like I said: "life is not as complicated as portrayed by me." I have missed blogging so I will start writing everything that held in my head for some time.

In additon to grad school, my dance company, and somewhat of a life. I started a new job and surprisingly to myself. I like my new job. This is surprising because I have never been the one to work on the clock. My work consists of communicating with people all day. I got the job with that communications degree that I got from Coker College and now I am so happy that I completed my communications thesis. It was stressful than but paid off in the end.


So why the additional job? I needed the extra money.

Starting my own company has not been easy and the extra money....it has helped so much. I actually get to concentrate more on my company now that I have an extra job. Simply because I am not stressing on what I am going to eat the next day. Just when I started working, the company has been growing evem more.

News flash: I am finding more of a balance with grad school. It now starting to make sense on interlinking with my current professional life of my company and job .

News flash: I have found a new church home. Its a smaller ministry and holds me accountable. The very thing that I wanted. My other church was so BIG that they did not even notice when I left. But I did like my old church because the word was strong there but I was starving for a Church family..
Well I got feed, I got a Church family from  my new Church home. They notice when I am gone from Church being that I travel alot..they notice..

A FEW MISHAPS..MY LAPTOP GOT STOLEN AMONGST ALOT OF MY BOOKS. PICTURES OF MEMORIES WAS IN THOSE BOOKS AND LAPTOP.

At the same time, it was bittersweet. I am not happy that my stuff got stolen but I am happy that it allowed me to let go some pictures of memories.


Some of those memories needed to be let go they were holding me back.

"LEARN TO LET GO"


To my readers, Hello again

get on mailing list at mufukaworks@gmail.com

MufukaWorks DANCE: GOT A NEWSLETTER? YOU CAN! BY GETTING ON OUR MAILI...

MufukaWorks DANCE: GOT A NEWSLETTER? YOU CAN! BY GETTING ON OUR MAILI...: ""

Gifted to Start again

The Lord has giving me a second chance after second chance.  Today I stood back and looked at my life and realized all the blessings.  Yea! For the first time in a long time, I did not look at all the challenges only just the blessings.  Looking at all my blessings, I realized that I can start again.  Yes! Another second chance . I prayed for him to CHANGE me this time not my challenges.  

I have been backsliding and I asked myself why.  Holding myself accountable, the honest answer was I had so much energy in me and was releasing it not in God’s way.  So if I do it in God’s way, I can’t even imagine what else he has in store for me.  He has giving so much, my company, schooling, friends, and LOVE. 

TRAILS ARE LESSONS. I understand that now even more.

MufukaWorks DANCE: 

MufukaWorks DANCE: : ""

DANCE WORKSHOP

AUDITIONS FOR PERFORMANCE COMPANY CALL 843 441 8803 FOR MORE DETAILS



MY COMPANY'S ONE YEAR CELEBRATION



Dance.Today's News

Alicia Keys - Like You'll Never See Me Again

DEAR READERS Matthew 6 helped me

It is important to surround yourself with good friends.  My best friend and I, it took time for us to be good friends. The time helped us grow into a good friendship.  We have been friends now for 8 years and it was after 4 years of a rocky friendship….our lives started to interlink and it made us realized that we are spiritual twins…Well today, my spiritual twin had giving me a scripture that I well needed.   I have always been the worried one but I will just shake off.  BUT sometimes I will worry too much and I could not handle the pressure.

After a long time of no break in my life, I had a break today and I had FINALLY got a chance to read this scripture that my spiritual twin had giving me early in day:

THE CURE FOR ANXIETY

For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on.  Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?  Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  Are you not worth much more than they? And why are you worried about clothing?  Observe how that lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.  But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you?  You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, What will we eat? Or What will we drink? Or What will we wear for clothing? For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, all these things will be added to you.  So do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will care for itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own. – Matthew 6:25

Thank you to my spiritual sister!

I hope these words from the BIG BOOK…help you as it did me.   

THE UPDATE

DEAR READERS

I had the weekend off and here is what I thought about…WHEN WAS MY FIRST SCAR

Left with scars…

I use to LOVE candy.  Hersey kisses to be exact.  It was small in package but just enough to satisfy me.  Once in awhile I will eat Hersey kisses.  It never left me with guilt.  A supposedly friend of mine gave me Hersey’s white chocolate cookies and crème bar.  I didn’t want it but I ate it anyways.  My other friends use to make fun of me of only eating Hersey’s kisses and always wanted me to have something bigger.   But when I had the Hersey’s white chocolate cookies and crème bar, it wasn’t satisfying because it was too much.  Well I already had it and it was my first time trying it.  It wasn’t that great because it was forced.   But hey you could never take back your first time trying something.  I don’t eat candy anymore.  It left me with scars.

As I got older I went through many incidents that left me with scars but the candy incident was my first scar. My REAL friends always had me to vent their issues to and I vent mine to them.  As time went by, some incidents left me with TOO deep of scars.

Eventually not only did they hear my issues but the people who follow the blog entries and my dance works heard as well.

My blog entries are a reflection of my personal life and my dance works are my professional side.  Both are ONE in the same, the makings of me.

I was left with scars but life will bring me more scars.  And I am excited because thanks to God, he has giving me a vehicle to release the hurt I get from the scars…..

WHO AM I?

 UNKNOWN

 ONE BLOOD

RETURN TO SENDER

STILL I RISE

DEAR READERS

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!  I must say for the longest time this day has not been my favorite.  For on this day, nothing of LOVE never happened for me.  This year, I do celebrate Valentine's Day and I feel so much love happening for me.  Its mid-morning right now and I opened my Bible to read.  Still trying to finish reading Luke.  The scripture that spoke to me was: It is inevitable that stumbling blocks come, but woe to him through whom they come-Luke 17:1.  I related this Scripture to my entire life.  First I will discuss how this relates to my company, MufukaWorks Dance Company. 

The company will be opened for a year in March and it has been a struggle.  Right Now! It is finally getting recognition that it deserves.  We just finished our first school tour and our first major production, AWOL's Situations: Shakespeare's Sonnets The trials and tribulations of the Youth.  

Of course with success, it comes stumbling blocks.  These blocks come from negative energy surrounding the company and stress pulling down.  so what to do?  I stop for a moment and go to my knees and pray just like I did when I had a vision for the company.  He answered me through this Scripture.  I smiled and I remember the LOVE that's around the company.   Suddenly the negative energy slips away.  I am human and I stumble in my personal life and these words from the play Situations struck within me, "Be the change you to see." With the grace of God, I am still standing and he was wrapped me with all his LOVE.  I give that LOVE back to you. 

CHECK OUT:
1)  Scripture Luke 17:1
2) Stay focus on positive energy
3) Give LOVE
4)Receive LOVE

ONE DANCE WORLD

http://www.youtube.com/user/MufukaWorks?feature=mhum

WHAT A DAY!

For the past week, I have been on a cleanse with Get Fit Gym, Ladys Island SC. Yes! I just gave them a plug. It is the best gym for me and I will tell you why....I got up early this morning and did my workout classes.  I steped on the scale and there it was in one week with the cleanse and workout. I lost 12 pounds. 

Oh! and I have been dancing as well.  I am feeling so lovely right now.  Speaking of dancing, it is my life.  This is what I told a lady at Burton Wells Recreation Center, Beaufort SC (where I teach Dance).  Yes! another plug. Interesting in taking a dance class, I teach 3-UP ages just call 843 255 6600 http://www.mufukaworksdance.com/. I told her dance is my life and she kept saying what do you do.  I kept telling her dance is my life. 

I have worked so hard for it and it has consumed my entire life. Some people may not understand why I give so much for dance.  If they took a walk in my life,  they will completely understand.

For I was born for something bigger than myself, I know this because God really prepared me for moments like....

Seeing my dance students grow, the look that they have of self confidence.  It is so fulfilling every single time.  I ended my night with that look of self confidence from my dance students.  In fact a look of many things but all in all. Their look of hope. 

What a day! I also finished some of my grad school work.  If you are to go to grad school go for someting you really enjoy because you have your work cut out for you.  Between running my company and grad school, I am a 24/7 woman.  So when it is time to do homework for grad school, I am so happy that I am interested in the work.

Dear Readers: Today’s Church Sermon spoke to me: The Backslidden Believer

I remember when Christ came into my life.  I so wanted to learn more about him.  I wanted to know Christ not just of him.  You know, like, we know of our President but we don’t know him.  Like we don’t know what brand of socks he likes.  I want to know what brand of socks Jesus will wear because I will want to wear them so I can walk like him. 

I would not be so uncertain about a lot of things because I was walking like him.  I wouldn’t be falling into depression so often.  I would be at peace because the Holy Spirit will be counseling me.  Life will be bring me challenges but I will be giving every challenge to the Lord.  Then it will not be heavy on me.

Today’s sermon opened my eyes wide and it acknowledged me as being a backslidden believer.  Something of course that I did not want to admit.  I got caught up in the blessings and I was praying lesser.   I feel less into the want of wearing his socks even if I knew that I already had the socks. When things were really bad I was dropped to my knees everyday.  Now I am not even fitting my daily the prayer as I once did before. 

A few situations have come up and the realization had come up.  I can’t do this on my own.  How could I forget where God brought me out of?  If it was not for him, I will not even be standing by now.  So the excitement needs to come back, first I repent for the sins that I have done while saved.  I praise you Lord.  My needs Lord…I need help in Grad School.  It is a difficult path especially these papers and time gets away from me because of the dance company I run.  Both are good but I don’t want one to give into another.  Help me see clearly how you want me to manger both. 

Based on Genesis 35:1-15, The sermon today was split into the believer’s invitation (thank you for inviting me to you), preparation (repent to clean the heart), cleansification (the cleansing process begins) Than the 3 applications:

1)       Do you LOVE Jesus Christ?  Yes and not just what he does for me but him.

2)      If you don’t LOVE Christ as ONCE before, How do you fix it? 

Revelations 2:3

3)       Have Jesus ever been your 1^st LOVE?

Yes when I put him before my first 1^st love here on earth. I knew then.

NEWS FLASH Dance Update: Saturdays Performance at Birthday Bash Celebration went well at New Covenant Fellowship Ministries of Beaufort.

Kuronga Ronga SOLUTIONS

Recite

Revelation 2:3-5 

And you have perseverance and have endured for My name’s sake, and have not grown weary.  But I have this against you, that you have left your first love.  Therefore remember from where you have fallen, and repent and do the deeds you did at first; or else I am coming to you and will remove your lamp stand out of its place-unless you repent.

Remember

In Christian Life, you either go forward or backwards. GO BACK TO YOUR BETHAL WHEN YOUR HEART GOES COLD.   Where you first fell to your knees to Christ, mine was at my church in Beaufort.   and yes! i know that Jesus will not be having socks on his time on Earth but you must admit that it was a GREAT symbolization.

i slept in today

i slept in today


i can't remember the last that i slept and woke up not being tried. i can't remember  the last time that i woke up and had to go somewhere. i can't remember the last time that i woke up not crying. i can't remember the last time that i woke up not thinking ohhhhhh another day. i can't remember the last time i woke up not thinking of him. i can't remember the last time that i woke up not feeling pressure from myself.


i slept in today


i felt rested.i felt hopeful. i felt loved. i felt hungry for more. i felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. i felt life.


i slept in today


i picked up the bible and read it. 

i slept in today thinking ohhhhhhhhhhhhh so happy another day. today i perform at new covenant fellowship ministries of Beaufort at 6pm. i will feel closer to God today when i dance. I feel closer to him every time i dance. 

You will think that I will be exhausted

This week I did a full workout every morning and did some walking on the treadmill for an hour.  In addition to teaching all my dance classes and I am on my cleanse of shakes and salads.


You will think that I will be exhausted but I am not. All of these things are done because of dancing.  When I get tried something always reminds me why I do what I do.


You will think that I will be exhausted.


Coming from a town about 1 hour and 15 minutes away from my home, I had the energy to drive back from home from my students.  One of my students gave me a big hug and it made everything ok. 


She did not know that I have a long week.  She did not know of my thoughts of just going away for a while.  Just a while to change the scenery for maybe a week.  She did not know that everything i do.  I am still not catching up with my work.


She gave me  a hug and some of my students had recognized me as well.  They told me how great I am.  It made me feel like driving back home and continue working on me by getting closer to my Lord. SO i can teach to the best.


You will think that I will be exhausted. I am but I cant let that stop me

I HAD A BAD DAY TODAY UNTIL I KNEW PURPOSE.

 

I heard from an ex-friend today and it really threw me off.  My ex-friend and I just ended and I had not heard from him in eleven months.  Yes! It almost was a year.

Of course for those eleven months, I wondered if I ever saw him again, what I will say to him.  Well...I didn't say anything that I was planning on saying.  I just wanted to know how he was doing.

Can you tell that I was hurt by him?

He was doing just fine and his few words to me actually put a realization up float.

Of course the realization only came toward the end of the day.

It was in the elementary school teaching dance.

I was teaching about forty students.  They were all attentive and they were dancing very well.  One of my students finally jumped about three feet off the ground (you should have seen his face, he now believes of doing anything) they all recited the meaning of a dance movement called releve.  The meaning is "to rise."  They all recited my quote, "Anything worth anything is HARD work."  Our dance class theme today was "determined."  I asked the class, what does determined mean?  A student raised his hand and said: "it means DON’T GIVE UP."

BY THE WAY, THE PEOPLE INVOLVED WITH TRYING TO CUT FUNDS FOR THE ARTS. STEP INTO MY DANCE CLASS AND TELL ME THAT THE ARTS ARE NOT CHANGING THE WORLD. THE WORLD DOES CHANGE WITH CHILDREN. INSTILL THE ARTS IN A CHILD. INSTILL HOPE. WITH HOPE, THEY COULD DO ANYTHING BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES.

My ex-friends few words popped into my mind.  He said don’t' every change. You showed me what happiness is in life so don't ever change.  Little did he know, I have not been exactly happy for awhile.

You know there are some people in this world that you just connect with.  He is that to me.  He knows me better than anyone.  But some people are just not supposed to be together or maybe we just choose not to be. Who knows?  My ex-friend and I will always connect and it ends there.  Just a connection!  That connection came back today in the right moment.  It reminded me into who I am.

Yea! You will think after all my growth that I did not need to be reminded. But I did.

I was full of tears and teaching dance at the elementary school.  Those children uplifted me today and I took a DEEP breath.  IN that moment, I knew of my purpose.  This is my purpose.  I am a dancer but most importantly a teacher. 

After teaching at the elementary school, I continued teaching on to my performance company and choreographed a beautiful dance work to "Jars of Heart."

Just because life happens, I may not hear from my ex-friend again but he helped for today.

I had a bad day today until I knew purpose.

My purpose. My happiness.

when teaching, be clear on the WHY because one day someONE else will want to know: what is the point?

BLISS

Being back home, it is bliss. Coming straight from Charlotte, NC to Beaufort.  I went straight into teaching DANCE.  Everyday I am growing and my students do not have any idea....How they teach me?  Today my little student taught me how it is to walk even more confident. 

She is an eight year old but small for her age.  I really watched her today and I saw her.  She walked so straight up to make herself appear taller.  It worked for her and she looked so much more confident. 

She was just absolutely stunning.  Today was bliss....not to mention that I ended my day with watching "The Game."  on BET.

It had me thinking:  Do people really do things for the goodness of telling the truth or do they use telling the truth for their own convenience. 

SNOW DAY!

I woke up this morning.  I was rested and I was ready to go back to my hometown.  Due to my duties for Grad School, I have been in Charlotte, NC about 3 hours away from my hometown.  I had been enlighten by the whole weekend and learned so much.  I was ready to come back to my hometown.  


But my plans were slowed down by SNOW DAY! and I had to stay in Charlotte for another day.


Yes! the grounds were covered in Snow and it was just absolutely beautiful.  As I had took my pictures in the snow, I realized that the world has beautiful moments.  This was a beautiful moment.

COFFEE OR TEA JAN 5

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WduxNF5K4qQ&feature=player_profilepage

SOMETIMES I JUST NEED REST....

Sometimes I just need rest...

I am up and running kind of woman.  I have a lot on my plate.  Weekly, I go to three different cities from teaching dance classes, choreographying, and grad schools.  Right now I am in Charolette, NC (about three hours from my home town).  I was planning to go out some poetry night here but

Sometimes I just need rest....

I did not get up until 1pm today.  I am a early riser and I slept in. I dont particular like sleeping in especially on the Lord's day at least I was planning on church today. I cant even remember the last day that I missed church.

Sometimes I just need rest...

Today I read my the scriputure 4 in Ephesians.  I will take my rest and just give myself time to figure out what do I really want in life.  I am so busy but not taking time to figure out my desires in life.  If I dont take this rest, I will be working toward sometime to nothing.

MY READER INSPIRED ME-A LETTER FROM MY READER

Dear Elsie

our paths crossed very briefly a million years ago at Hatfied Primary School and you were just visiting our school while you were on holiday at your grandparents (i think) .Anyway this is kinda strange i know because we were so young and you definately would not remember me because while we only had to learn one name you had to learn a lot of names.

Anyway the point of me writing is just to say I came across your blog and it gave me courage to face the future which i was scared off really because of a lack of belief in myself and everyone i lean on (my family and my fiance) would be far away but most importantly it was after reading your blog that i decided to re-dedicate my life to Christ.....so THANK YOU for not being afraid to let your light shine bright enough for me to have seen it and GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS

P.S if this is the wrong Elsie and not the one that used to come to Hatfield Primary School..sorry and i still love the blog

I WOKE UP

I woke up with a weight lifted off my shoulders....

Weight.Weight.Weight.

What weight everything but most of all the weight of holding it on myself?

My mentor says that I am too hard on myself. She is right. If I focus too much on my past mistakes, I wont even be able to live the right now.  Sounds so simple but I don't even know where to start until today.  I needed just a feeling of starting over.  This is the day, January 1, 2011.

2011 something different....MORE FAITH.