WHO AM I? VIDEO STYLE

did you ask me?

did you ask me? am i ok! before you just go into telling me your day, did you ask me if i was ok.  ponder that in your head for awhile.  take a moment and ponder that into your head.

your so self consumed, you probably don't even know.  if you asked me if i was ok or not....

well, you did not.  you did not ask me if i am ok. 

today, i was not ok.  i have big decisions to make and im not even half ready to make one decision.  this bothers me and it would be so awesome to talk about it to you. 

but i held back my life and i listen to you again.  i listened about all your problems and how the world is so unfair to you. i listened to all of it. 

in a hour passing. it was about you again and i wondered if i could have a listener in my life.  why do i have to be the listener to you. where is my listener?  where i could realize the frustrations of my day. 

unfortunately you are not it....so i wrote today in my journal.  my journal does not talk. i found my listener.

LASH EXTENSIONS

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block

do you create blocks with in you?  i know your thinking what kind of question is that but really.  do you create blocks? defination: a block is something that you create with in yourself because of a certain thing that happen to you.  example: i have a created a block with in myself and did not even realize it. 

i use to date someone a long time ago and i loved so hard.i was loved back for a some period on time. the relationship ended badly and i did not hold any bitterness toward it. well...so i thought.  it is until i got into another relationship of some substance.  i realize that i held a BLOCK.

i was not allowing myself to love so hard.  this created a block within myself not allowing another to get too too close.  i ended that relationship and i did not know exactly why...i just knew it was not right.

what was not right...i was not healed previously....

im realizing now as another relationship is beginning to kettle...im not allowing to get deep again. ok! now its a pattern

i realize it really....so i have this block. need to get ride of it.  

ITS BEEN A WHILE I KNOW...

I will begin to let you why it has taking me so long. You know, my leg got injured to the point that I could not walk.  It has been an adjustment. I did not cry when the accident happened. I was ok...I just kept talking to God and asked him what is next. My leg is healing now and I had a journey.

Between juggling my life with dance and all, he brought me through.  He provided me with my dance assistant to dance in my absent and I had the time to focus on things with school and office work.

MOST importantly myself.

I realized that I must put God in the forefront of everything that I do. He has enable me to make decisions some harder than others. BUT I know that these decisions are what is best for.

To my readers, I am here now so follow me on my walk