did you ask me?

did you ask me? am i ok! before you just go into telling me your day, did you ask me if i was ok.  ponder that in your head for awhile.  take a moment and ponder that into your head.

your so self consumed, you probably don't even know.  if you asked me if i was ok or not....

well, you did not.  you did not ask me if i am ok. 

today, i was not ok.  i have big decisions to make and im not even half ready to make one decision.  this bothers me and it would be so awesome to talk about it to you. 

but i held back my life and i listen to you again.  i listened about all your problems and how the world is so unfair to you. i listened to all of it. 

in a hour passing. it was about you again and i wondered if i could have a listener in my life.  why do i have to be the listener to you. where is my listener?  where i could realize the frustrations of my day. 

unfortunately you are not it....so i wrote today in my journal.  my journal does not talk. i found my listener.