COUNT IT ALL JOY WHEN YOU FAIL

For the past years, I have gone through some hard times.  It seems that I am always struggling finding inner peace.  Nevertheless, I never really got to the core why I struggle with finding inner peace. 

Well this time, I really looked at myself from the outside and asked myself seriously, WHAT IS GOING ON ELSIE?

Here is my self evaluation:

1) I complain way too much.  Yes! I have hard times but I am still living and standing.

2) I believe that I deserve better. I have worked hard all my life.  I am not in the place that I want to be.  I actually learned from my job as a guest service agent about selfless service-doing something for people and not expecting anything.  This is a valuable lesson that I shall instill in my personal life.  Yes! I work hard but my day will come.

3) I have strong beliefs but willing to put a curve ball in my  beliefs for others happiness.  This compromises my happiness.

Today, I went to church.  I was late but I was there.  I sat in the overflow room.  The pastor preached on count it all JOY when you fail.  I have failed in finding my inner peace.  I have been having, cake and eating it to. I recognize the tearing up of my life.  At 25 years old, I am still learning.  I know now to surround myself with people whom can hold me accountable for my actions.  I will go to church more and do more reflecting.

I love the Lord and excited to tell people about him.  At this moment in life, I am getting strengthen by him so I can strengthen others.

My changes:
1) STOP COMPLAINING
2) STANDING FIRM IN MY BELIEFS
3) ENJOYING LIFE