It is not that heavy

Dear Readers,

Today, I put myself in full exposure. For months, I have held something truly heavy in my heart. The core of my hurt that I do not want to dishonor the people whom birth me.  When you are birthed, you are made up of all their entailed.  They gave you life and made you whom you are.  Then, you grow up and you hold all that in you.  It becomes your duty to never dishonor that because it is whom you are. 

For the past months, I had a great wind in my life that interrupted all of that so I thought.  But, it is because of my upbringing, I know that I am stronger. I know that my choices must be in God's eyes. I learned that from watching it during my upbringing. I learned not even knowing it because they never said it out loud. They just lived the testimony of what its like to walk truly in God's light.  I had a great wind in my life not to interrupt but made me give it all to the Lord because the first time in my life. I have to make a real choice. 

So, I am faced with the biggest decision in my life.  It is not that heavy but whatever the choice. I know that its a choice that I have to live with my entire life.  So, I want to thank my birthing of giving me sound advice to really think of what am I doing. I truly listen.Without them, I will not even think of the realm of what I deserve.  I hate to tell them to wait on my decision because it hurts them dearly.  In my own process, I have to do this.  So, I let everything go so I could pray and ask God. What do you want me to do? I do not want it heavy on my heart anymore. I know it is not suppose to be heavy when you trust God.  

I am praying about it every day and all I need is time to wait for the answer. I am now walking in my spiritual walk not my walk of what I want but what I need. 

To my readers, I urge you to think about your choices. It shall not be heavy.  If it is what truly needs to be, let it be and seek God for guidence in your choice.  I say this because I myself has to work on this.  I am truly am blessed to have a circle of support around me and my intentions are to never dishonor them and I know whatever my choice its going to be. It will be a difficult one not heavy either way.  I trust God will guide me through it all. Question: What are you holding heavy on your heart and is it truly that heavy? 

"The true test of walking in the spirit will not be the way we act but the way we react to the daily frustrations of life.-Beverly LaHaye